Misery

This is just a disastrous holiday ever. I think i will lost the person I love the most. I just don't know what to do though. I'm stuck in the middle of friendship that used to have special place in my heart. huh! What should I do to fix these out. I just don't have anyone to talk about this. Now I understand why people keep on sayin' that lovers can't be friend. Because its really don't work out well. It will stuck in the middle of nowhere. I just love them both and I'm not willing to let go both of them. For the time being, I can't bear to see one of them walk out of my life. They both have a special value in my life.

Sometimes, this is just some tiring bullshit that I have to face. But the fact is, they help me shape to who I am now! This holiday shouldn't turn out like this. This should be the great one month holiday ever. God, what should I do to keep them both. I just don't know how to solve this mess. Seriously! I know there is someone out there that can help me out but I can't figure it out because I'm so messed up with this shit. I just hope that something will cross my mind to untie this dead end.